Find Yourself Again

After years of pouring yourself into others, feeling as though you’ve been beaten by life, and finding ways to cope, eventually you find yourself standing at the edge of figuring out who you are.

You know you must find yourself – who you really are and were created to be.

Either you once knew and lost it…

Or perhaps you never knew.

I feel as though I have been standing at the edge of this for the past 3-4 weeks myself. How does one answer this question after so long of not knowing or feeling like it’s been so far stuffed away that it hasn’t peered into the light of day in a decade?

In pondering what I really want my life to look like through reflection of where it was and where I have been, I’ve been forced to come to terms with the reality that I’ve lost myself somewhere along the way.

For each person the reasons are different, yet so many of us feel this at some point in our lives.

I believe in my life, the storms that have weighed so heavily on me have been my daughter’s health and all the unknowns surrounding it. And of course, keeping up with her daily needs.

Add to that her twin brothers and the heaviness it places on a mom’s heart knowing two more of her children need therapies.

Living through a 12-year relationship that was hard, to say the least, lost a bit of me. “Coping” and “survival” took over while I squelched some of what once was the critical parts of me.

Feeling forced to earn an income and busting my tail to get more money into our household at every waking moment… striving.

In my soul searching, personal development, and simply the stillness of listening I’ve come to enjoy and value over the past several months, well really a year, I’ve found a few portions of my soul that have not been released in such a long time.

One of those pieces is creativity. Not just crafty, but true creativity… the kind that flows from your heart.

Another piece is music. I used to play the flute and haven’t for so long. I miss it.

I have also owned a cello for years, planning on learning how to play, yet… nothing.

Well, not anymore!

I’m learning now. How can you not when you hear the brilliance and creativity flowing from other cellists like Steven Nelson (playing “Michael Meets Mozart” here with Jon Schmidt):

I simply love the creativity and genius that flows out of this video! It feeds my soul. Music does that for me in a way that nothing else can – which translates to me that I need to be doing something with it!

I’d also like to learn languages. I have a few in mind, however, I haven’t narrowed it down yet.

I have places I’d like to travel to and maybe even live one day. A super nice aspect about blogging is the portable factor of being able to make a living from anywhere in the world!

I used to blow off bucket lists, thinking they were too focused on the “death” aspect. How sad is that? That’s not what they are for AT ALL. They are for living… really LIVING.

My time is now…

It’s time to love life again.

What about you? Do you have a bucket list? Do you have dreams and desires you have pressed so far down that you think they are impossible to accomplish now, even if it’s simply learning to play an instrument, learning a new language, or taking up a new hobby? It’s not too late! If you are breathing in and out, you can always learn something new. Share in the comments section below something you’ve always wanted to do or thought was interesting that you’d love to learn. I want to hear!!

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JessBio200 Find Yourself AgainJessica Stone is a serial entrepreneur and mom of 4 – 3 with special needs and a set of twins. Her daughter has an undiagnosed neuro-muscular condition that limits her mobility, and her twins are currently receiving therapy for sensory defensiveness, physical mobility, fine motor skills, and speech. She enjoys sharing what she has learned through her trials, experience, research, and tools that have helped her family with other parents who are looking for support, encouragement, and helpful information. Get her FREE gift to you, 30 Easy Snacks Your Kids Will Devour: Eating Healthy Never Got So Simple. Connect with Jess live today on Facebook!

Find Yourself Again

The Lies of Personal Development

When you start this journey into self help, personal development, personal growth – whatever you want to call it – all the same, just different names, it seems most people get revelation after revelation. The more you seek, the more you are given to receive.

I know this is true for my life.

When I am open to change and seeking direction, it comes and comes like a flood.

It’s in the applying of the new knowledge and skills that gets interesting. You can be totally open to loving yourself and your life, even willing to make changes – however, the craziest part of the process of personal development is realizing just how dark, dusty, and damp your thinking was to begin with – those thoughts you grew up with, your mentality about yourself and the world around you, and how that could all once be considered “normal” in your head. Wow!

At least that’s the way I feel.

It’s brain pathways, thought patterns, and general feelings of life that try to seep back into the new thought patterns and habits you are trying to develop, almost trying to choke the life from the new growth. It’s bizarre, yet obvious, at the same time.

It’s almost it’s own worse enemy because it’s so obvious.

That’s when I know I’m on the right track… when I hit a crazy wall with funky thoughts and find myself “feeling” certain old things again and having old thoughts. It’s lies and not the truth. It’s the old me trying to squelch the new, improved me.

If you have found yourself in this same position, I encourage you to see the success you are having – if the lies are trying to creep back in, you are obviously doing something RIGHT!

Don’t give up and throw in the towel on all the progress you have made. Keep seeking answers to your purpose and passion. Keep serving others. Keep moving forward.

Are you in a place in your life right now that you are feeling “funky days” and having crazy, old thoughts creep up again? Are you fighting hard not to throw in the towel and need a boost to keep going? I pray this post has helped you realize you are NOT alone. You aren’t hanging out on a limb by yourself somewhere. You are loved. You are valued. You are appreciated and respected. Please share your story in the comments below. I love hearing from you!

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JessBio200 The Lies of Personal DevelopmentJessica Stone is a serial entrepreneur and mom of 4 – 3 with special needs and a set of twins. Her daughter has an undiagnosed neuro-muscular condition that limits her mobility, and her twins are currently receiving therapy for sensory defensiveness, physical mobility, fine motor skills, and speech. She enjoys sharing what she has learned through her trials, experience, research, and tools that have helped her family with other parents who are looking for support, encouragement, and helpful information. Get her FREE gift to you, 30 Easy Snacks Your Kids Will Devour: Eating Healthy Never Got So Simple. Connect with Jess live today on Facebook!

The Lies of Personal Development

Where Healing and Loving Life Intersect

I’m sitting here getting choked up with all sorts of emotions. I’m elated, nervous, sad, thrilled, and frustrated all at the same time.

I feel like I’m called to help people, though, today it may only be through me helping myself – because that’s all I feel I can do.

I feel lost and very much found at the same time. I feel I’m questioning SO much, yet already have the answers. I feel I’m sitting on the verge of something major with no clue how to get there.

However, I think that’s where God wants us – vulnerable. Trusting. Alert. Seeking.

He wants to give us a glimpse and have us trust that He will get us there.

What frustrates and saddens me is that I still question and fight doubt.

What thrills, elates, and even makes me nervous is the vision of what’s to come.

It’s as though I’m on the edge of a cliff and can easily look back, crawl to obvious safety, and know I’ll be ok… but just ok.

OR…

I can take a giant leap of faith and know that even though I can’t see the thing that will catch me – still MOVE and trust that it’s there.

It’s exciting and nerve-racking at the same time!

And it would far exceed ANY safety behind me.

I love life.

I love the thrill of it. The changes. The possiblities.

I live to love life.

Have you ever heard that nothing happens by coincidence? Or maybe you’ve heard it this way – when you are open to getting the answers, they come to you?

Not only have I heard that A LOT lately, but so many things have happened, almost an absurd amount, that it CANNOT be coincidence.

I believe that when you are listening for divine purpose and calling, it shows up – sometimes right on your doorstep.

It can also come through e-mail, a video, social media, a book, a neighbor, a friend, a friend of a friend, or even a stranger.

I know God is doing a healing work on me, in my heart and life.

I know that He has greatness for me.

I know that if I stay pursuing Him and His plans for my life, He will take me to amazing places.

Of course there will be bumps along the way, however, choosing how to deal with them makes all the difference.

He has expanded my vision for my life FAR BEYOND anything I could have dreamt up myself!

To Him be the glory…

Did you have a time in your life when you felt both the need to get stronger and healed, yet you could feel a shift in the air for something bigger and better? I’d love to hear your story! Share in the comments below.

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JessBio200 Where Healing and Loving Life IntersectJessica Stone is a serial entrepreneur and mom of 4 – 3 with special needs and a set of twins. Her daughter has an undiagnosed neuro-muscular condition that limits her mobility, and her twins are currently receiving therapy for sensory defensiveness, physical mobility, fine motor skills, and speech. She enjoys sharing what she has learned through her trials, experience, research, and tools that have helped her family with other parents who are looking for support, encouragement, and helpful information. Get her FREE gift to you, 30 Easy Snacks Your Kids Will Devour: Eating Healthy Never Got So Simple. Connect with Jess live today on Facebook!

Where Healing and Loving Life Intersect

What Do You Do When…

What do you do when God has given you a vision of your future, though, you can’t see the road to get there?

You trust Him anyway.

What do you do when the lies creep in and tell you that it will never happen?

You trust Him anyway.

What do you do when you feel like you’ve done it all?

You keep going and trust Him anyway.

What do you do when you feel disconnected and abandoned?

You trust Him anyway.

What do you do when you feel helpless, drained, confused, and alone?

You trust Him anyway.

What do you do when you receive gut-wrenching, heart-pounding news?

You trust Him anyway.

What do you do when you can’t see a way around the huge mountain staring you in the face?

You trust Him anyway.

What do you do when you are thrown into an uncomfortable situation for a season?

You trust Him anyway.

What do you do when you are the sole responsible person for the training and raising of your kids, putting food on the table, and making sure they grow up in a loving, caring home all by yourself?

You trust Him anyway.

What do you do when you want to throw in the towel?

You keep pressing on and trust Him anyway.

What do you do when all the circumstances around you are screaming the opposite of what His word says?

You trust Him anyway.

What do you do when your feelings and thoughts in your head lie to you?

You trust Him anyway.

What do you do when you are at the end of yourself and have nothing left to give?

You trust Him anyway.

What do you do when what He’s asking you to do is so big, out of your comfort zone, and requires a leap of faith?

You trust Him anyway.

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JessBio200 What Do You Do When...Jessica Stone is a mom of 4 and owner of her own businesses in the fitness, beauty, and essential oils industries. She has 3 special needs children, one which has an undiagnosed neuro-muscular condition that limits her mobility, and her twins are currently receiving therapy for sensory defensiveness, physical mobility, fine motor skills, and speech. She enjoys sharing what she has learned through her trials, experience, research, and tools that have helped her children’s health with other parents who are looking for support, encouragement, and helpful information. Get her FREE gift to you, 30 Easy Snacks Your Kids Will Devour: Eating Healthy Never Got So Simple. Connect with Jess live today on Facebook!

What Do You Do When…

To [Blank] With It

Do you ever have those moments when you wonder what it’s all for?

You’re pushing, striving, thinking you are doing what you are “supposed” to be doing – yet it seems like something’s not clicking.

I am learning each day that I certainly don’t have it all together. There are days I feel like I’m doing REALLY well – I’m productive, I’m helping people, I’m getting stuff done – even earning money.

Then there are those days…

The ones you just feel “off” like something’s not working. Like you are missing something. Or someone.

Rejection can hit you all sorts of ways. Through close relationships & friendships, and even in business with clients, prospects, or strangers.

Rejection is something we have to deal with in life – it’s unavoidable. And some handle it better than others.

I always thought I was ok with rejection. I didn’t like it. But I could move on fairly easily.

There are some rejections that make you question a WHOLE lot, though. Are you doing the right thing? Being the right person? Acting the right way? Saying the right thing?

GOSH – can I just be let off the hook to be myself?!?!

Part of me has been so numb for so long that I’ve wondered if I’m capable of certain feelings. I’ve forced myself into numbness to avoid the alternative. It was my way of coping with the world dishing me out something that I thought should have played out TOTALLY differently than reality.

That part of me came alive just a bit this week. I was able to feel again. I was sure I had that part of me still in there somewhere – the part that wants to find my soulmate. The part that wants to bless someone else’s life by being in it. The part that doesn’t care about the little things but wants to be cared for. The part that wants love for me being me and not the pressures to be someone I never should be.

Ohhh… all the crap and lies that fill your head when you go through hurt and rejection! It’s not just dealing with the hurt and loss, it’s the aftermath of the “I’m not good enough’s” or the “Who would want me now, especially with this many kids, their needs, and my less-than-perfect body?” I hate those lies. I hate them because they carry a shred… be it small… but still, a shred of truth.

You have to fight it. I have to fight it.

I’ve grown, though. I see something now and think “I could actually have that” – where before, I’d think it was so far out of my reach. The fact that the thought that I COULD have it amazes me. There was something inside me, in my gut, that said “yes, you can get to it!” Of course, then, the lies crept in and tried to tell me I’m not worth it. Ugh!

It’s a battle I’m waging, but I’m not giving up. I know the truth. I know who I am. I know that God has awesome plans for me. He has brought me this far… why would He give up now?

So… I’m not giving up either.

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JessBio200 To [Blank] With ItJessica Stone is a mom of 4 and owner of her own businesses in the fitness, beauty, and essential oils industries. She has 3 special needs children, one which has an undiagnosed neuro-muscular condition that limits her mobility, and her twins are currently receiving therapy for sensory defensiveness, physical mobility, fine motor skills, and speech. She enjoys sharing what she has learned through her trials, experience, research, and tools that have helped her children’s health with other parents who are looking for support, encouragement, and helpful information. Get her FREE gift to you, 30 Easy Snacks Your Kids Will Devour: Eating Healthy Never Got So Simple. Connect with Jess live today on Facebook!

To [Blank] With It